Tuesday September 28th 2010

So, its been 2 yrs since I went on drugs for my postpartum depression after I had the twins. Just after they were born, Scott had to go away on a course, my mom was staying with me and helping me since I had the twins and the 2 boyz. Well, all was going well when Scott was here, he would get up with me at night to help feed the girlz, basically he helped me with EVERYTHNG. When he left I was going good, I was pumping, getting up with them, and watching the boyz as well, which was a feat all on its own. After about 2 weeks of this I went to see the Dr for a check-up and she asked me how I was doing and I told her about some feelings I was having and how emotional I was. She told me to hang on a minute and she went to talk to my mom about it, my mom told her some things that she was observing while she was here.

The Dr didnt like the sound of this so she told me I would need to go to the hospital for a night or two. I told her that I had 4 kids I had to take care of and twins that I needed to feed and put for a nap, she asked if my mom could watch all of them while I was in the hospital and I told her 'probably not' and then told her that I would go home and call Scott and get him to come home (if I could) and then I would go to the hospital for her. The Dr told me that if I didnt stay at her office that I would have a police escort and be taken to the hospital by police car. I told her 'whatever I need to feed my 4 kids'.

I got home and fed the girlz, and was just getting the boyz their lunch when there was a knock on my door. The Dr wasnt lying, the police showed up and took me to the hospital (in front of my 4 kids!!!!!!!!!) where i was immediately taken to the Acute Mental Health ward and checked in for the next 2 nights. My mom got a hold of Scott and he came home the next day and came to see me in the hospital to see where this was going. I was almost Halloween so I told him I was hoping to go home before then. So I passed out after I had dinner, and when I woke up it was like 12pm and I felt refreshed, not at all happy but refreshed. I had lunch and then I went to go see the Psychiatrist and talked to him about what I was feeling and such. He asked me some questions and assessed me and then put me on some medicines to help with those feelings. I was send home on Halloween day and got to take the kids out trick or treating. I was to go back a week later to see the psychiatrist and re assess how I was managing. He kept me on the meds he first put me on, but raised the dosages and was to get a dr and was to seek out councelling and check back in with him 6 months later.

I have been on drugs since then and seeing a councellor as well. As of 4 months ago, I am on a steady dosage of meds and am happy to announce that I dont need to see my councellor anymore. I feel happy and LOVE being a SAHM to my 4 wonderful kids. I have never felt this was since after I had my second child.

Anyway, I was playing around yesterday and came up with these, there are no drop shadows on the stitches.

Stitched Things - enjoy and dont forget to leave the Love

Just Starting

Hi, I'm Renee and I'm a scrap-a-holic. I have been paper scrapping for 3 and a half years and digital scrapping for 3 years. I have just started making my own kits and I'm no pro yet, but I think I'm finally getting the hang of it. On this blog I will post about my everyday life and some freebies for everyone. If you download please leave love and opinions. If there is anything you want me to make let me know and I will try to get it done for you.

Here is the first kit Halloweenie

Alpha - http://www.mediafire.com/?2na2bbd487aqeer

Papers - http://www.mediafire.com/?rnypxaah9obxrb7

Elements - http://www.mediafire.com/?66s9snnwf1i0izt

And the second one is called Girlies

Papers - http://www.mediafire.com/?bx894yt0yac8tpo

Elements - http://www.mediafire.com/?ico5b6kma65umdj

Enjoy and don't forget to leave some love.